Maybe so?

Have you ever been to a point in your life where you don't really know where your life is going to go? You know you want it to go somewhere, but you just don't know where.Do you ever think that the man of your dreams is thinking this same thing and wondering: "I know she is out there, i just don't know where?"Every man you talk to or pass by just walking down the street you think maybe that could be him? and you take another look at them. You wonder maybe if i stop looking he will come?You know you're going to have good and bad day's but it's never going to be like it was before. All the hurt and pain. All you want is the kisses and hug's :) I think the thing i miss most of all is the "I LOVE YOUS"...... The wakeing up after a bad dream and feeling him there and knowing everything is going to be ok. I just want to feel that love again, the i can't live without you.... the longing to be by his side in his arm's. You just want that look, the one that makes you feel just so........ well AMAZING!!!! I know i just need to put the lord back into my life, but right now i just don't BELIVE IT! everyday i think is it really true? I know I need to just BELIVE but I don't.

Just stuff on my mind....

Things on my mind

You get to a point in your life where you're at a cross road and you have to pick which road you want to go down....Well I have hit that point..... I'm standing in front of the two and i'm thinking, which one do I really want or need? I have some amazing people in my life and i would like them all to come along with me. But it's time to let some of them go. I need to grow up, pull my feet back underneath me, and move towards what i want in my life. I sat here and thought, "when was the last time i was truly happy with myself and happy with what i've had?" I can't even remember.